Ugh.
I hate today's Reverb prompt about what social occasion knocked my socks off in 2010.  Because here's why:
I mostly hate social occasions - unless its with a small group of people at someone's house.
I am NOT a fan of big parties.
But I do love 10 (or fewer) people together in a room, talking about stuff that's interesting to them.

Of all the gatherings this year, the most PRECIOUS was Thanksgiving - my family was all together (except the UK contingent) and we were at my folks' house in The OC.  No furniture, since they're getting ready to go to Panama.  But we had a blast, despite

This is my Reverb10 post for today - am catching up since I'm a few days behind!  The question for today is when did I feel most integrated with my body?

Basically, since August, I have "put down" any bad feelings about my body.  I do feel bad about my thighs now and again, but for the most part, I really don't fret about what I eat or what I look like anymore.  This could be for a # of reasons:
1.  Running 5x a week = eat pretty much what you want
2.  Geneen Roth (Women, Food and God) made me realize that I was spending a bunch of energy on my body and it was not doing me - or the world - any good
3.  Being single and getting comfortable with my life, my house, my choices has "trickled over" into being comfy w my body

This is a tough one.  I made LOTS of good decisions in 2010.  I have to admit, I think I make lots of (pretty) good decisions every year.

But this year, I have really been following my inner (supportive and good) voice - not resisting, not pushing it down, but really honing in and listening to it. And I'm ignoring my Crappy, Dream Killer voice. You know the one that shouts at you for eating dessert even if you REALLY enjoyed it and wanted it.

Volume on Yummy Happy Inspired Voice = UP
Volume on Yukky Sad Dream Killer Voice = DOWN 
 

Maggie is sitting at my feet right now, in the trailer at the Simi Valley Landfill. 

If I have to go to work, get up, take a shower, be nice to people and attend council meetings, I figure the least I can do is take my dog with me.

My therapy dog.  My role model.

How did I cultivate a sense of wonder in my life in 2010?  Oh my goodness, I am not sure how I DID NOT cultivate a sense of wonder.

First, I am always and every day amazed at nature.  The trees, bushes and birds around my house never cease to amaze me.  My cat, Nutmeg, and my dog, Maggie. are also amazing.  They are so at One with the One that they are my role models in life.  Wag More. Bark Less.  Nap More.  Purr More!

My life is basically all about wonder.  Its only when I get "pinched off" from the One and lose track of what I'm really here to do

OK - we are supposed to do a blog entry on "What or whom did you let go of this year? Why?"

This one is EASY - I let go of having to be a Superstar all the time at work.  With the craziness of one of our trash projects in the Central Valley and LOTS of other (great) people being brought onto the project,

I totally lost control of the project.  And I relegated myself to assistant helper rather than SuperStar Employee of the Year.  Hard?  You bet!  But in the end, sooooo great because when I turned around the looked "over there" - there was lots of other fun stuff to do that was way less stressful.
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Yesterday, I was really thinking (and feeling) a lot about how much what I perceive as "reality" controls whether I am happy or sad, angry or joyful, frustrated, anxious or fulfilled. 

So, what to do with that, other than notice it?

I'm not sure - but I am sure that there's a small, still part inside of me that is FINE no matter what happens outside of me.  The core of me is always me and always safe.  Always happy and content and fine. 

Whenever I feel tossed about by the waters of whatever I am naming as reality at the moment, I have to remind myself of this.  SO MANY TIMES!!!!!  I FEEL LIKE A SLOW LEARNER!

I really don't know what the title to this blog entry means but I know that I signed up for #Reverb10 to blog about writing and what 2010 has meant to me. 

So, here goes.  The question today is: What is interfering with your writing and can you eliminate it?

Well, my job distracts me from writing Clean Your Closet Change Your Life.  But my job also allows me to do a ton of writing - including writing that i like to do, like press releases, speeches and press statements. 

So, I think the response is: My whole LIFE supports my writing - my work writing and my "personal" writing.  Because my personal writing invovles all of you, it adds to and enriches my life A LOT!

Maggie likes to eat socks.  Mostly, she likes to smell my stinky running shoes.  But every once in a while, that's not enough for her.  And she needs a hit of stinky socks.

Have I mentioned Maggie is my "new" dog?

Dogs are gross.  Have I mentioned that?  But they are as close as I'm gonna get to kids so you are going to have to hang with me on this.  She's fine now - after hundreds of dollars at the vet.  And I am fine now.  But I can't even imagine what it would feel like to have a sick child after experiencing having a sick dog.  So hard! Wrenching. Sometimes I think I don't have kids because I have such a breakable heart - that I couldn't withstand loving a child so much.

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Ok, this is the Reverb Project (lick on link above) and I have signed up because Miss Shirley told me to.  So, my assignment in my blog today is to pick one word to describe 2010 and one word I want to use at the end of 2011 to describe 2011.

2o10:  Rollercoaster
2011: Magical

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